Just an update for all of my readers, I am still planning on keeping my blog alive, but lately I have felt the need to pull away from the computer for a while and focus on trying to do some more inner work and find more inner peace during this time in my life. Pregnancy can do some crazy things to a girl! I am happy to say that I had my first prenatal appointment last week and got to hear the heartbeat! I never got a midwife this time around, but I am seeing a doctor that I am happy with and that they say is the next best thing to having a midwife. Very low-intervention and more personal than my previous experiences. It was so cute too, when we were just leaving the clinic, Kesa saw a baby and exclaimed “There’s your baby momma!!” I guess that she figured we were taking one home with us. It was so cute.
I have also been having trouble with my eating and keeping new recipes coming because I am simply sick of all food. There is nothing that really appeals to me at all. Plus, for the past week and a half I have been sick with a terrible cold, so I couldn’t even taste any food. For the past week I have basically been living off of oranges throughout the day and oatmeal, one of my favorite things, loaded with strawberries and blueberries. This week is looking and feeling so much better than the whole rest of this terrible winter. I have been going for walks again and the sun is shining, which puts a smile on my face. I am not a fan of winter at all and can’t wait to get out more. It’s funny how just taking a month off of yoga and walking can make you feel so crappy and miserable. I didn’t realize how much I need it. I don’t plan on doing anything too vigorous throughout my pregnancy, just walking and maybe trying some prenatal yoga. Walking seems to exhaust me enough as it is and I always crave a nap by noon and go to bed by 10pm. I think I forgot what I got myself into! Still, I can’t wait to hold this baby and I know that when I do I will forget everything else.
I guess what has been the biggest challenge for me throughout this pregnancy is separating myself from my feelings, both physical and emotional. I have been trying to find myself and not get swept up in the emotions or physical challenges. I am also learning to trust my body more and rest if I need to rather than push myself when I really feel tired. It really is hard for me to just not fight some of these feelings but embrace them and watch them come up. Perhaps even more challenging is eating healthy, believe it or not. I still eat moderately healthy, but not really balanced and being out of balance in that area makes me even more cranky and tired. I have been eating a lot of things like sugar and white flour, I have even had candy a few times. So I am going to try harder to be healthier and eat more veggies and whole grains again. I know my baby and I will both benefit from eating more foods that are not just empty calories. But hey, a girl’s got to give into a craving once in a while right?
I hope that you are all having a fantastic week and are keeping smiles on your faces! Just think, Spring is on the way! 🙂