Thank you all for your beautiful and encouraging comments regarding last night’s post! Blogging is sometimes a difficult thing because I do often have this fear of being judged and struggle with letting myself be fully myself and real. I often hold back in my writings and don’t say what I fully want to out of fear of being judged, but I think I have good reason to feel this way because I have been judged by others (including my family members) in the past when I was being fully me. It has happened on more than one occasion that someone has said something to me and I really don’t take their words lightly. I actually like to examine within myself whether their words are true and have a look deep within myself to determine whether or not I do need to change something about my life (as I was reflecting last night). I am a deeply reflective person and I really do desire to do good.
I think that this lesson came into my life to teach me something that I have been internally struggling with for what seems like forever. That is, to not be so afraid of what others think or say about me and to just let myself be real and not hold back. This is something that I really struggle with in life. I know that fear does not serve me, but still, it is terrifying so to let it go, especially when I have been judged. I think that the ultimate lesson for me in this is to let go of others judgments as well and to not let their judgments of me and my life affect me. To know that if someone is judging someone else it is (as many of you said) really a judgment on themselves and reflecting something about themselves back to them. The same is true of when we judge another person, we are only judging ourselves or avoiding looking deeply within ourselves to face some sort of inner darkness.
I obviously spent a great deal of thought on this yesterday because the person who I had a discussion with was close to me and I was honestly able to come to a good place about it. In searching my heart, I really do not feel as though I am being boastful in my life or on my blog either. In my heart, I know that the way that I am living my life is right for me and my family because on this path I feel nothing but complete peace. I know that being vegan is what is right for us. I know that homeschooling is what is right for us. I know that my spiritual views are right for me and I know that writing this blog and keeping it public is right for me. All of these things are right for my life right now, but that is not to say that at another moment in time things will change.
There were other words spoken in the conversation which also hurt and came from a judgmental place. I thank you for affirming to me that another person’s judgements speak more about them than they do of who they are judging. Ironically, I also came across this video last night which was a great message to me and a great reminder. I thought that I would share it with you all too! Such a beautiful message!
It is also a good reminder to think before we judge others and recognize why we are making judgments on others.
Thank you again! Thank you for choosing to be apart of my life and being my friends. You are all lovely! 🙂