So I have been thinking. I know, I know, what’s new? I have been thinking a lot about my life and what I want. I know a lot of new age type of people always talk about the secret and how you can have in life whatever you desire. Whatever you think is your reality and your thoughts can either attract positivity or negativity. I totally agree with that, but I have always been careful about what I should desire. I never wanted to have attachments or crave things to satisfy me and make me happy.

For a while now I haven’t really allowed myself any non-spiritual goals. I think that has served a great purpose in my life as I have come to meditation and mindfulness and learned a lot about who I am and what my place is. I’ve got really good at watching my thoughts and separating myself from them. I have found that there is an inner peace and joy within me that is constant. I know that there is nothing that I can ever do to add to or take away from my worthiness and the fact that I am loved and looked out for no matter what. I am learning to let go of controlling my life circumstances (how I want people or things to be) and trusting that everything is always as it should be and I am always right where I need to be. I am living and learning every day.

Now I feel is the time for me to add some other things back into my life and set some goals because I believe in balance and feel so out of balance these days. I feel less afraid to enjoy my life and allow myself to feel good and happy. I have come through some terrible times with my eating disorder and self-sabotaging (still working on this one) my life and am ready to seek balance again. BALANCE. How I crave thee and how impossible you seem to find.

Here are some of the goals I came up with for myself, some are everyday, some are short-term and some long-term. A bucket list sort of deal.

EVERYDAY GOALS

Things I would like to do every day

• Put on positivity – affirmations/read something encouraging in the morning
• Eat smaller meals more frequently and mindfully
• Eat raw vegetables
• Drink a lot of water
• Read (even to the girls)
• Keep my house tidy (no dishes in the sink at the end of the night, sweep and make beds)
• Teach Autumn her school work
• Walk or get outside (weather permitting)
• Inspire someone or make someone smile
• Be patient (very hard for me sometimes)
• Be a good example to my girls and model the right behavior
• Don’t say everything I think
• Breathe
• Laugh
• Smile
• Play
• Dance
• Jump on the trampoline (rebounding)
• Listen to awesome, uplifting music
• Shoulder stand for at least 2 minutes
• Take a picture
• Cook at least one meal and sit together to eat as a family (say some kind of blessing)
• Pray
• Meditate
• Be grateful (keep a gratitude journal)
• Tell someone I love them
• Give someone a hug or kiss
• Learn something new
• Hit the pillow knowing that I gave my best

SHORT-TERM GOALS

Things I would like to accomplish within the next few years…

• Exercise regularly (at least 4 times a week)
• Try Tai Chi
• Get really good at yoga
• Do push-ups (the real kind)
• Do a  head stand (SO SCARY TO ME) for at least 20 breaths
• Make peace with the mirror and love and accept myself no matter what I look like
• Read more books (a book a month)
• Blog at least 2 times a week
• Connect with other mom’s or women on a regular basis and make more friends
• Visit people more and have people come over to visit
• VISIT MARIKA
• VISIT CALEY
• Go on a date
• Get my drivers license
• Play Clarinet more often, learn and memorize all of my scales
• Learn musical theory (I’ve had the book for almost 9 years now)
• Go on a ski trip with hubby
• Save $500.00 (for ski trip?)
• Swim as often as I can in the summer
• Try eggplant and tempeh
• Get my recipes in order
• Make an upside down cake – soon!
• Eliminate wheat and soy from my diet
• Go to a movie (it’s been a while)
• Learn photography and take awesome pictures
• Get a new camera (my flash has been broken forever)
• Make family DVDs with our videos
• Scrapbook
• Learn to sew
• Learn to knit
• Find a good charity and give more of my resources away

LONG-TERM GOALS

Things to do before I die or several years down the road…

• Travel somewhere, anywhere
• Run a half marathon
• Run a whole marathon
• Have a baby boy and possibly another girl (twins?… never mind)
• Get a college degree in nursing or early childhood education
• Volunteer somewhere
• Play in a wind ensemble or symphony
• Teach clarinet lessons
• Publish a cookbook (yes, yes, yes)
• Make the girls matching dresses
• Knit the girls a sweater each
• Be content with my life
• Love myself and be comfortable with who I am
• Be the kind of mom that my kids admire and can always come to in any situation
• Be an awesome Grandma
• Make a difference in the world, leave something that will go on forever, even if I don’t know it
• Die knowing I gave my best

Those are some things that I came up with. I am sure that there are many more that I can’t think of right now. I am also going to make this post into a page and keep track of what I actually accomplish on this list and look it over often.

WHAT ABOUT YOU? WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR LIFE? Feel free to share in the comment section. Let’s get some positivity flowing! I would love to hear from you!

Much Love,